All Ready for Summer

I was early for my appointment this morning so had a wander up the street and back and noticed this scene in someone’s garden. Keen.

I was on the 8am bus this morning for my 9am appointment to get my bloods taken. The nurse found it quite difficult to find a vein, apparently they are quite deep. But she found one.

Had a chat with her afterwards. Last night was hard, while watching tv I, all of a sudden felt anxious, the tears started and found my breathing all over the place. The only way I could calm down was to cut. After a while it was like it never happened. This is what I find hard to deal with. I was given a row for not calling the hospital team, it might have prevented me from cutting I was told.

The nurse suggested I try a self- harm self- help group. If I went I would be going for the wrong reasons; I would be going to see what others did and what they used, to see if I could find other ways.

Appointment over, I came home, got into my pj’s and went to bed, where I still am and feeling rather low.