Friends Walk

It was our Women Who Walk with Friend today – the walk with the tunnel Nellie of the Woods had suggested as a walk we could do with Friend and that we had checked out together a few weeks ago. Friend had started the whole walking group, and she has not walked with us for a very long time obviously. This would be the last time she would. It was a lovely walk, and it was fun in the tunnel with the lights I had brought. We then had a meal in the pub garden just above the tunnel. If you look at the photos it looks a great event. It was, until people began to leave the meal whilst some of us were still eating. So began the build up to my anger and then meltdown. I was and am so angry and disappointed and sad and oh so many other emotions for so many reasons, not least because Friend began to get anxious as people left as to who would be left to push her back, given a few of us had injuries of our own. She felt she would be a burden to us. I could have walked back and got the car and picked her up so it was not a problem, but she was made to feel anxious. That is why I really felt so angry I think. As it was those that were still there walked back with her and it was really nice - but the day was marred by people drifting off and I don't think they realised how momentous this walk was for Friend and maybe they hadn't realised we intended to eat at the pub and walk back. But I kind of think they should have and should have put her first on this day and not planned other things to do so that they left half way.