Surprise!

I started out expecting rain and instead got blue skies and sunshine! Plus the cusp  of a panic attack! But I managed to walk myself out of it. Left me feeling very low - when will this ever end? However after a sleep I told myself I should be celebrating the fact it was just the cusp of one and that I had enough strength of mind to cope with it. I'm laying down new mental paths to deter me from taking the ones that lead to panic - I just have to accept the fact it will take time. But I will succeeed and heal myself! 
Thank you for hanging in here with me - I do so appreciate it x