had a crap day, sore and cried on the phone to mum for an hour. just tired and overwhelmed - worried about myself, the kids, beefy and everyone else too. finding it hard to accept that I was so fit just 6 weeks ago and now I’m on the vulnerable person list for this virus. 2020 sucks. keeping the kids off and working on beefy. I feel guilty, but things are too important now.