Hello February!

A high pain, lower fatigue day. I had made some plans today but had to rejig things a little but it worked out okay thankfully.

Caught up with texts from friends which were overdue.

Today has been busy with more telephone appointments, life admin and planning my February - being chronically ill is most definitely a full time job without the renumeration. 

I love planning though (guess it’s been drummed into me from previous lives) and I’m incredibly methodical by nature so I don’t see such things as a chore. I get a buzz from making plans and trying to get things in order. 

Where I struggle is when things outwith my control (most of life!) don’t go to plan which I really find challenging and stressful  - I am slowly trying to let go and let things flow. It’s a daily learning curve, that’s for sure. I feel I am getting there slowly but I am trying.

I started my annual online February Gratitude Challenge. I do it every year as a way of trying to try and stay positive through tough times and hardships. It really helps me. Every day, there is a question and you answer it. 

Has anyone ever taken part? It really shifts your thinking from one of resentment/stress to one of gratitude if you take it seriously. I’m very spiritual and see it as part of my decade long path towards spiritual growth.

I have rested today due to my high pain levels and avoided napping although I really needed one as I had too much to get done but knew I would feel better mentally if I ticked off the things on my to do list as I did yesterday.

Last night, I watched the Pamela Anderson documentary on Netflix - Pamela Anderson, A Love Story. It’s a biography documentary of her life - she is 55 years old. 

I had no preconceived views one way or another about her, she was not someone I ever gave much thought to and I didn’t watch Baywatch as a kid like many of my peers. It was absolutely fascinating - I really enjoyed it, I was gripped. I watched one half last night and the other half tonight due to my fibro fatigue. I would highly recommend it. 

Trigger warnings re the documentary  - it talks about drug and alcohol addiction, living with an alcoholic parent, separation, divorce, co-parenting, domestic violence and childhood sexual abuse. If you can, give it a watch. I would be very interested in your views.

A Duolingo German revision lesson first today - 100%! My highest personal best has been 98% so I’m delighted. Day 152!

I’m off to watch Emily Atack’s documentary about online sexual harassment of women with hot chocolate and heat pad. I have read a review and caught an interview she did about it so hoping it will be as interesting as it sounds. I love her stand up routines. If I can last, I will watch Peston too. I love his interviewing style.

My extra - a very true quote in my yearly planner. A life lesson of mine for sure. A timely reminder as I flicked through the pages of my planner!

Hope you’ve all had a wonderful Wednesday :)

I have a busy couple of days with appointments which will take a lot of energy and patience but Friday is in sight - keep on keeping on as Primal Scream sing! xx