No no no no no no

Eons ago, before the pandemic, but after I joined blip, one of my friend’s mom died. For no rational reason I offered to photograph the funeral and she said yes. It was a beautiful thing because funerals are also family reunions and people want to remember both. I felt a little weird doing it and some people felt a little concern about me doing it but when they knew I was a friend of the family they were relieved and friendly.

Her eldest sister had some body tension. I think she must have said something to my friend and then my friend explained who I was and this was a gift. 180 change. Her sister came up to me in the reception and hugged me and smiled at me and I took pictures of the family all together and all of the sons separately. 

I hadn’t taken pictures of the sisters separately and later we arranged a very fun photo shoot. Remember, I’m an amateur and was definitely an amateur then but I had new lights and wanted to try them and we all had a blast. 

But I loved taking a picture of that sister and wanted to do it again, better. She was beautiful and fascinating and intriguing. 

I would share with you a picture, but I can’t upload my screenshot because it is a png and I’m working off my iPad. I only (“only”) brought my work computer and my iPad and I’m leaving the computer in the office.  

I asked to photograph her again and was politely brushed off. My friend just let me know she died. At the time of the sister photo shoot she’d just been diagnosed with ovarian cancer and she didn’t want anyone to know. The picture I took will be on the cover of her program. A silly one I took will be in a slide show. 

I am so sad. 

I will be home in time for the funeral and I’ll hug my friend.