Big Decision

I have been procrastinating on making this decision for the sole reason that I am loving a life without "stress".. The stress of working.. Don't get me wrong, I love my job.. At the end of the day -- even if it was 12 hours-long-day work, with about 10-15 minutes nap on a desk on night rotations if I'm lucky, and being able to visit the toilet (an excuse to sit down as well) at least once within those 12 hours -- knowing that I have helped children get better, and alleviated some anxious parents, the smile on their faces makes it all worthwhile.

But today, I got a call from my mum.. She was back in the hospital for follow-up after she was discharged. Cardiologist advised immediate admission for work-up and observation because of the persistent erythematous oedema on both her legs and an alarmingly high blood pressure. She has a background of Cardiomegaly (enlarge heart) as well.. Medical services is not free in the Philippines. In fact, before you get admitted, emergency or not, you need to deposit a fee. And once admitted, the charges keep flowing like a burst dam. In short, money is needed. And I know, I cannot solely rely on my sister's support, no matter how insistent she was that she'll sort it out. She has her own family as well..

So I made a quick decision.. A big one, as I know there is a chance that the stress brought on if I go back to work might be detrimental to my condition as well. I called my agent, and told him he can put me in the rotation, starting 29th of July. Although I've told him, I want to choose which hospital to work in and which hours and days I can do. Hopefully, I can play it by ear on the first few days and see how my body takes it.. Don't worry guys, my health is still my priority. If I feel that I am the slightest bit stressed (I love my job, so much so I don't feel like I'm working most of the time) and am skipping meals or missing toilet time, then it would have to stop. By then, at least I would know what my limitations are and what my body can or cannot cope with.. Although I know myself, I always give not only 100% in my work, its always 120% if not more.. I'd have to hold back and trust my colleagues would pull their weight as well (even if the perfectionist in me shouts otherwise). I thought I would feel trepidation once I have decided on this, but I don't.. I know I still have it in me. I'm quite confident in my knowledge and skills, mentally, emotionally and socially.. it is the physical aspect of things I need to sort out..

So its back to hitting the books and latest journals. I would love it if I could still do my photography interspersed with my work, as I indeed love both.. So fingers crossed, mind open..

WORK IS NOT WORK WHEN IT IS DONE WITH LOVE IN YOUR HEART AND A SMILE ON YOUR FACE...

P.S.
Thank you all so much for the love you've given yesterday's Shy Friends. So much appreciated.. Forgive me for not having been able to comment much -- will get on it while things are still not as hectic as I imagine it would be soon..
Hugs and kisses!