All It Took Was A Book

We have been living in the new house for over a month and still have not finished unpacking... Nightmare!
Mum and dad bought a new bookcase and the other night dad and I put it together. Mum was excited to be able to put her books in (and get rid of two boxes!)

This book "The Secrets Of Ireland" was bought for my mum by my sister, the pictures alone are stunning. There are small stories about each place, a little history and it even mentions some pubs around the towns.

This morning I continued to tackle the adventure which is unpacking my room, sorting out clothes I don't need or want which is always tough because you never know when a certain style will return. At lunch time I sat downstairs in silence until my thoughts became to loud. I turned the telly on to the music stations, a song will always speak to your mood your emotions.

As the music ranted on about bars, getting drunk, and not at all speaking to me, I noticed this book on my mums shelf. It was then I changed the channel, the end of Miley Cyrus' new song was playing (by the way... I don't understand her. What happened to the party in the USA Miley??), I walked over to the book and this is when the next song whispered in the background.

Drive - Incubus
"Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear,
And I cant help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer,
It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal,
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel"

A few months ago I had a discussion with a friend about how I wanted to travel and do something just because I could. They never understood why I couldn't. If I'm honest I don't think I can convince myself with my own justification as to why I shouldn't go. Could be fear, it's safer to stay where you are with what you know. But that isn't living.
They asked me to think of what my 50 year old self would say if I was faced with it. She would probably tell me everything my friend did, to just do it while I'm young.

All it took was a book and a song to remind me of the conversation. I am the kind of person who plans everything, I know I can't plan life but I guess it's a defence mechanism to stop me from getting hurt. And you know I have a plan if the first doesn't work.

But right now I'm staring at a passport form, next week I'm booking the interview.
I have no plan. I'm hoping to get to Ireland, Scotland, Wales and hopefully England next year. Not a plan just a dream in arms reach.

I have no idea what I'm doing world!! But I'm smiling about it. No job, no car, no idea what direction I'm going, and no destination.

This isn't a blip to showcase the beauty of Sydney, it isn't a great landscape photo, or panoramic shot. It's a blip of an epiphany, a revelation. They aren't always pretty.

But to heck with it, it's Friday!