Last year

One of the reasons I love Blip is the ability to look back and remember  what was happening same day last year (and how I wish I had been Blipping for longer than a few years?).  Twelve months ago we were still full of hope and Aimee was enduring multiple trips to the RM (including Christmas Eve) for blood tests/transfusions?  

Today was a sad day.  They talk about grief coming in waves and today was like a Tsunami.   It started this morning as I was thinking about James staying over last night and him sleeping in Aimee's room and she wasn't there (I did offer him a sleeping bag on the sofa if he was feeling uncomfortable being in her room but he was ok?). I then received a lovely Amaryliss in the post from Hannah's parents in the US with lovely words.  I went down to the greenhouse to re-pot it and saw the chair that Aimee sat on the last weekend before she had her final seizure........I was remembering her sitting there while I fiddled and sowed some seeds?  I came indoors in floods of tears and spotted a robin in the garden (you know what they say about robins) and it sat on the wall for ages and ages, as if telling me to dry my tears.  Then strangely another Robin flew down, and I just thought that is Mum coming down to see me too, then blow me a third robin (and you know they are territorial and normally you only get one in a garden) came down so that was my Dad too.  Call me a silly old fool but I was very happy to see three robins today.   A good friend of Aimee's came round with the photos and film tribute on a memory stick which she had put in a box engraved 'Smiley Aimee'.  Cue more tears and memories and lots of cups of tea.

OH had his hair cut and visited MIL in the care home and I did a Tesco shop ........nothing changes but everything changes?!

Tomorrow is another day and No.2 and H are coming down so will be filled with silliness and laughter and remembering Christmas Past..........He's beeeeeeeeeen !!!