Not to be

Today has been a mixture of emotions.

I was still seething from that phone call last night. And then I had my return meeting with the new boss. Late again. Pleased with the work that the team have done, but we had some ridiculous conversation about the future at the end. Almost as if he wants us to dumb down everything so we can be as cheap as chips with other companies. I asked what he actually meant, but he just threw it back and said I'm the expert you figure it out. I give up with this.

Not long after that one of my mates had bad news. Not going to lie we are an absolute basket case at the moment.

More change in the afternoon on a call that my young padawan was part of. It also left my head of H&S feeling completely disenfranchised, as rather than pay him to be global head of H&S they are now bringing in a consultant to do it and take his global framework and implement it. An absolute disgrace!!!

In the evening we all headed to Wembley for the BQF Awards. My hired suit was looking good, but a clip on the bow tie broke so I had to replace it. I was gutted, as it was the same colour as my young padawan's dress. She looked amazing.

We were up for four awards, but only won the first which was about EDI. I was gutted my team didn't win Best Team it would have been such a lift for everyone.

We danced the evening away till 1am. My young padawan and others headed out to Wembley to enjoy themselves.

It is hard not feel dejected today, bad news, hearing stuff that puts doubt in my head and just a feeling of rejection. Why is it those that care the most, are the ones that suffer the most?

Today I am thankful for:

1.  A good day and night with my young padawan, even if
2.  Winning one of the awards