A new low

Today up until this evening was the best day I had since the heaven that was all-state. I'm done with tests in school for the year. I was so free.

I negligently did not respond to an interview request for swarthmore and hell broke loose.

I hate myself. I hate what my household has become. I hate that I success and happiness are mutually exclusive for me. I need to choose success right now. I bawled tonight, something I rarely rarely do. I am looking to God for advice.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13