Unwelcome visitor

No wonder the cats are twitchy - went outside and found this unwelcome visitor attempting to gain entry via the cat flap.

I have finally given up. The nausea comes in waves, I wobble like I am going to fall over when I am standing still (so clearly I am not a weeble), I have lost about 1/2 a stone (in kilos ??) in the last 10 days, I don't want to eat because of the nausea, I can't drive because of the dizziness, I have to sleep about an hour after the tablets and I have little control over that, and today my stomach has been very very upset about the unwelcome visitors it has been receiving every four hours (see yesterday!).

So, common sense prevailed this afternoon and I made the decision that it would be unwise, and potentially very unsafe, for me to attempt to drive 25 miles to work tomorrow in my given state.

Now, I feel guilty, even though I have spent 4 hours preparing work and getting it onto the school network for tomorrow.

Feel like I am letting everyone down, especially my kids - I harp on at them constantly about making progress...then I am not there to support them.

Feel more guilty because Corin and James are having to put up with me in this miserable and horrible state. I'm not me - I don't like it one little bit. Bloody abnormal cells have started this stupid domino effect that leaves me feeling distinctly crappy. And I am worrying about the results of the biopsy due on Thursday.

Must go - feel 'icky.