wait just one more shot

By Susanbmathew

To everything there is a purpose

Seriously?
Someone has to explain this to me.
No fence just a gate. I was going to put this in mono however, I love the green.
I had some pretty leaves but this cracked me up. It won.
this is where it is

I've been a little " off" lately. You see I had a friend that made me feel special and I lost them. So I started thinking about why I had that need, to feel special, or the need to have someone else think I was special. I mean why can't we just be happy with who We are. The whole validation thing irritates me. The need for it I mean.
I am sad for the loss as this friend pulls away and moves on (literally). Will we keep in touch? With Facebook it's easier however, not the same. Our lives are busy and they keep moving. We didn't have a lot in common to start with and this separation will not help. What about the secrets we shared with each other? I'll take their's to the grave. Will the loyalty continue on their part? I don't trust easily and figure that they were a quality person before let's hope that continues.

In the end, the realization that it is up to me to identify who I am. To rely on others to do that for me only leads to a level of disappointment (Or dis ointment as my iPad says ) and sets me up for failure.
So that's my mindset. I am thinking that I have resolved it and am feeling pretty good about it.

( please don't think this is a cry for validation, I am just ruminating on change and how it makes me become more of an adult. I am dragged kicking and screaming into this)

In the mean time what is up with the cemetery? There was a fence last week. Did they suddenly arrive at the conclusion that there is no one to keep in or out from this place. This old place of rest for so many. Many graves are 200 to 300 years old. The deterioration is rampant. This brings up the issue who's responsibility is it to maintain them? It's just sad.
All of these graves contain people who were special to someone. Seems sad we don't honor that.

Time to make dinner and get ready for chorus rehearsal. We are learning more German tonight. It's hard people. We need to sing more in French. I can speak that!
So as always,
Good morning Down under and..........good evening to the north.

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