Decisions

Work was fine and I got home to find lodger J packing to go home as he's got the lurgy.

After lunch, I tackled the rest of B's stuff (and even a bit of my own junk). I've kept some stuff for the others to sift through where photos or items seem to relate to them personally. The rest I took to the charity shop and the broken stuff to the tip. It felt good to have cleared some more space and clutter but to have retained the essence of B in the things I've kept for now. The next step is to get each of my siblings over to go through what's left, take what they want and then I'll donate the rest.

I saw an email from P wondering why I wasn't planning on going to the ashes scattering. He said it had kept him up last night, worrying. I explained that it didn't mean anything to me (absolutely true) but he said he thought all the siblings ought to go to support each other even if the ashes scattering itself wasn't to their taste. I wasn't sure but I've been thinking about it since and talked it over with the head shrink and S this evening and think I probably will go, not for the scattering itself but to be with the family. I'm quite touched that it seems so important to them that I'm there to complete the family unit.

Turning things over in my mind like this is a good thing and it's good to discuss it from different perspectives both in the family and outside. Not something I always do I realise.

I timed the charity shop run well, leaving myself just the right time to get to the head shrink and had a good session. Then I drove straight on to Bedford to see S and E (seen here doing her homework with a photo bomb by Maisie the cat). We had a lovely tea and catch up and S is keen to see the new colours and wallpapers at mine, possibly to get some inspiration for herself. It's been far too long since I saw her, probably two and half months so there was lots to catch up on. I left just before11pm and was treated to a nice surprise of a barn owl hovering above a verge on the way home.

A good day.