Arrival.

I have hit the wall today big time.
Too much stuff going on in my head, thoughts of jobs, career, aspirations, moral dilemmas, emotional attachments and how best to manage life ...so many things to factor in...I think change is something that I realistically have to contemplate for myself in the next twelve months or so. Complicated.
Do I wait until James starts high school (he only has one year at primary left), do I look now?
Will this all pass after I have actually had more than 4 hours sleep and not had a number of run ins with children over a 3 day period? I dunno.
I just know my head is full of conflicting thoughts and my stomach is turning over because it isn't about 'just a job', its about relationships with people who I respect and love working with and I am not sure whether I want to start all over again somewhere else.
Do I even need to?
Do I want to move on?
No matter really - there aren't any jobs out there for what I want to do or could do...except one, but I am not extending my already stupid travelling time to anything more than it is currently.

I will let fate decide!

So it was nice to come home to find that the photobook of our wedding photos had been delivered today. Its going in to work tomorrow. I'm very pleased with it. I am very grateful to the various contributors to the book. We are very lucky to have such generous and talented friends and family who so willingly turned into paparazzi on the day. You have given us lots of captured moments that have brought a smile back to my face this evening :-)