TGIF

Last night I barely slept- all 3 boys woke at different times for different reasons, harper wound up awake from 2-330 am and was jumping around in his cot chatting away occasionally coming to me for a cuddle.

This morning as I heard Andres alarm i wished it was Saturday, i wanted to stay in bed as all the boys were sleeping in of course because they were tired from being awake in the night.

The thing about being tired is it makes little things feel big, it makes little problems big problems, it creates something from nothing. Because you can't think properly when tired everything is bigger than you.

This was me today. Small insignificant things felt huge like forgetting to bake for marleys school fair or thinking there were issues with family or landlord stopping by at the neighbour's- things that weren't things. By the afternoon regular every day things that I do concern myself over were mixed up with these insignificant things and I felt overwhelmed. Throughout the day there were moments of tears as i tried to figure out what actually was important and what wasn't.

Tiredness and lack of sleep is cruel on the body but more so on the mind. I love my boys immensely but one thing I won't miss as they grow up will be sleepless nights.

It was really hot with a nor wester today, picking up mar from school felt like standing in an oven on fan bake. Mar was sweet with his painted face, his teacher had been practicing for school fair tomorrow- he was a witch. There's a little black cat on the side of his face that you can't see.

We have mums car for the weekend as we've got a few things on tomorrow though it's meant to rain. Tonight though we went and got sushi for dinner as a treat. Yum.

Feeling much better now especially when Andre got home from work tonight - he makes everything better, he has that calmness, that straight thinking that I couldn't manage today